I decided to add a blog portion to my newly built website. Just so you can take a look inside a photographers life and get to know me on a personal level.
More often than not I am hidden behind the lens. As I evolve as a photographer and grow as an individual, I've begun to develop this over critical mentality of myself when my photos are taken. It's a bad habit to pick up, as a photographer you know exactly how a person should pose, look, stand, smile. BUT when it comes to me, I freeze. I get camera shy! I've spoken to other photographers as well and this is a thing. Not for all photographers, but many can sympathize with this new found shyness. The strange thing for me is that I used to not be this shy, I was always getting my picture taken, I LOVED getting my picture taken. But here we are, years down the line and a collection of photos featuring me as the focal point that don't meet my standards. I think becoming a photographer made my standards higher. I also want to feel confident with the person who is taking my images. These are all reasonable thoughts to have when someone is pointing a camera in your face!
When someone isn't comfortable in front of the camera, it shows. The ability to make the subject comfortable and confident is a hard thing to achieve, especially when someone is self conscious about themselves. I've noticed that the only pictures I love of myself are the candid ones that were shot by close friends of mine. I was myself with them. It wasn't forced, it was a safe space, it was fun. So to my subjects that I photograph, I can sympathize as well. I too have my moments where I am awkward in front of the camera, or don't like how I look at the moment. But the purest moments are captured with souls you connect with. And that is what I strive to hold and capture with my clients, I get to know them as we progress with the photoshoot, I ask questions, I am interested in what you do, being a model isn't a requirement to achieving a beautiful photo of showing your truest self. There's nothing more fun than having a shoot with a laid back gal who just wants to get cute shots of another human being. The end results are magical. And as I experience the awkward stage of my confidence, I can level with my clients and we can grow together as we evolve into strong, confident women! Girls making magic happen together.